Big Sister

I know you won't believe me... but this precious, cute, adorable, fun, silly, loving girl about worn me out!! Miss Ellie, aka BIG SISTER, has been a BIG mess! She had quite the adjustment period after Patrick was born.

My mom ended up coming back to help me out late August. Ellie had been pushing her limits & I was losing patience. I guess Patrick's 3rd & 4th week were the hardest. Just a few ideas of what she was doing ...

coloring on the walls

look at this face!

trying to hit me if I told her no

she bit 5 friends, including her baby brother & cousin Ryan.

tried to run from me in the parking lot

make mean faces

kick & through fits just because

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She started having accidents daily. Usually peepee thank goodness!



 You say "how can that be? look at this sweeter than sweet girl!!!"

But, wow... she was wearing me out! I talked/cried to my mom on the phone three days in a row about this.  I was feeling SOSO  bad getting on to her so much. I don't like to spank, but I was out of options... she got a few pops on the booty. She would cry & say "i will be a good big sister' 'i will be a good listener' & i would sit there and cry too. My heart was breaking for her. Her whole world just changed in one weekend & she could not express how she was feeling.

 It was the hardest thing I have been through... her transition. Not even sure it was this hard being a big sister my self?!?  I was so emotional & felt like a failure as a mother of two. Patrick was being a great baby & I was physically feeling ok, but my favorite girl was wearing me out mentally. It was also hard on her that I could not pick her up for a few weeks. She would say, 'stand up & hold me mommy'. I hated to see her so upset!!

 We went to Nashville the week of Labor Day. When we got back, I was in a better place. I prayed every night for her to adjust, for my patience. We finally turned the corner that week. I heard the first month was hard, well for us it was a little longer. But day by day, I could see we were doing better.

We made it through August with some help  & September was much better. I have to remind myself that she is just 2 and a half, she will have accidents & won't listen sometimes. I can't believe it is already October!! Ellie is doing so much better, we still have our moments but definitely better. God does listen & I am very thankful. Wish one of my MANY friends who had a toddler girl when #2/boy came would have warned me ;)